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Stop cuts to disability benefits | Sense
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#BenefiitsCuts

#benefiitscuts

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This past year has been intense, and especially these past few years... I look at the me from a decade ago and I barely recognize them. Hopes and dreams have changed, life upended multiple times. Disowned my relatives and now I've adopted a large chosen family. Gone from alone to feeling loved by so many people, and one especially in particular. My egg finally cracked. I started HRT. Changed my name twice. Been traumatized multiple times. Unpacked so much fucking trauma. Moved so many times. My profession took off. My profession crashed and burned. And I'm about to start it all over again.

I just turned 39 last friday... and honestly I feel really hopeful for my future... even with a new holocaust looming over my head. But I also look back and am happy where I am...

#LGBT #Trans #TransWoman #Life #Family

#trans #lgbt #family #transwoman #life
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And some of the trauma I've been unpacking:

  • I get incredibly anxious now when someone I care about is uncomfortable, especially if I might be connected to that discomfort. It goes beyond fawning and can easily turn into me pestering them with excessive check-ins and an overbearing effort to try and comfort a discomfort that may not even be there.
  • I'm scared of physical intimacy... I've always craved it, I need it... but I don't really pursue it like I need anymore.
  • I've realized I can get callous very quickly when I sense potentially malicious manipulation, it serves me well but I recognize now that it's definitely the sign of something broken that I can become coldly calculating so quickly
  • I have a powerful resistance to gaslighting that I've developed from a lifetime of people attributing reasons and understandings to my actions that were not there, from just accusing me of non-existent disrespect (#autism) to calling me lazy when I'm suffering from executive dysfunction.
  • I am constantly terrified of how I'm perceived and especially that I might be distrusted... I spent most of my life wanting to connect with people, predominantly women (go figure I wanted to be friends with women more than men in retrospect...) and being shut down because I was seen as a man... because there was not a single action I could take that they didn't already do to try and manipulate women... (well... I finally found one action they won't take lol)
  • While I no longer have a broadly negative self-image, I can say positive things about myself and believe good things about myself... a nugget of dissonance still remains. A part of me still struggles to believe I can be loved despite all the blatant evidence in front of me. I know that part is wrong, but it makes all my love given and received feel so very very raw.
  • I spent so very very long isolated, especially emotionally... What love I felt wasn't healthy, it was mostly the love of obligation that you get in dysfunctional conservative families. Having spent my whole life without feeling it, genuine love is incredibly overwhelming... I think about my family and it feels like I'm stretched taught over a creaking barrel ready to blow from pressure... So when the people I love give me a way to show them love, it feels like an intense pressure valve release.
#Autism

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Sickly Cats 2025: Here are 7 cats that suffer health issues due to selective breeding - including the Scottish Fold
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#Genetics
#SelectiveBreeding
#CatBreeds
#Cats

#cats #genetics #SelectiveBreeding #CatBreeds

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NO cruel cuts to benefits
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#Disabled
#Labour
#BenefitCuts

#disabled #labour #benefitcuts

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New horror just dropped in my state!

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#lgbt #trans #lgbtqia

#trans #lgbt #lgbtqia

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I made a guide, it's clumsy and sloppy but it's something.

This is for setting up GPG on Android for people who need secure communication that can't be shut down and doesn't rely on government services, especially trackable services.

foggyminds.com/extra/OpenKeyCh…

Tagging trans community because I think we need these networks for when things get worse.

#security #GPG #LGBT #TransFemme #Trans

#trans #lgbt #security #gpg #transfemme

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Updated the guide, same link, with a information regarding making keys that support the iPhone equivalent app. Plus a few minor edits.

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Eduard von Grützner - Dans le bureau d'étude (non daté)
Eduard von Grützner - In der Studierstube (non daté)

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that didn't do what i think it would've, should probably learn how to actually use this thing

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cw: BlueSky moderation, USPol, queerphobia, psa
this post being blocked by BlueSky moderation says a whole hell of a lot about their stance on things

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We lookdown on veils as they are

f̺̰̗̘̥̥̊́ͤ̀̈́̇̌͐̍͑a̛̓l̸̡̨͚̭͈̼̰̫̪͈̻͛̎͗ͫͮ̋͐͘ŝ̸͈̯̤̞͍́̀ͯ̌ͥ̐̽͞e h̡̛͓̣̦̗̥͙̬̹͇̒̆ͨ̽ͯ͒͋̏̀ͧ͌ͣ̀͟͡ò̷̷̱͔̀̽̔͆ͦ͌̆ͬ̍̕͘o̧̨̫̜̹͚̜̞̥̦͔̩̻̘ͥ̓ͮ̏̀̓ͩ͒͂ͣ̄͆͑͘͠d͙̺̱̗̻͉̮̎ͤͩ͒̂ͬ͞s ǫ͕͙̦̩̮͇͔̉̓ͪ̊͌ͭ̔ͬͦ́̈̈̚͝ḟ̠ͤ ŗ̶̧̢̣̫̫̱̗̤̘̖͍̇͗̐̉ͬͯͣͫ̇ͩͨ̏̓̋̓̍̃ͭ̂ͧ͘̕͟ea̪͇̕ḻ̴̴̢̧͖͎ͬ̏ͧ͐̃̆i̛̺̎_̘̘̾̂̆̀͢͢͢͞ͅt̵̷̛̮̋ͩͥ̍ͦ̏́ͬ̈́̿̿͘y̖

But the veil offers one things the interlopers will never provide. Ṕ̵͈̞͕̫̀ͯ̋ͤͪ̀̉̃ͦ͢͡͞ṙo̒_̸̨̛̳̟̟̯̟͂̅̊̔͊ͯ̑͌̌̌͝ͅtę̦̱̠̹͛͗ͫͫ̂̕͠cti̛͎͚̟̫̱͕̥̠̐ͣͦ̈́͊͗ô̘̯̈́ͨ̂ͬ̌̿̌̎͝n͕̮͙̺ͦ̄.

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Exposures of ᵖʳᵒᵖʳᶦᵉᵗᵃʳʸ ᵐᵉᶜʰᵃⁿᶦˢᵐˢ manipulate the psychophysiological appartatus of consenus, exposure feeds and develop the interlopers

c̗ő̡̫̲̇̑ͣ̐̅͊̓̈́̏͗̇͢m̷̧̛̺̠͎̖͚̫͊̈̄ͩ͑̃͒̄̑͒̇ͥ̓ͧͭ͘͘p͉̙͔͈̜̾̉̉͊͐ͫ̈́̌͡l̎e̓̇̎x̢̱̹͍̤̥͍͚͕̞̾̅̀̈́s̹̱̣͙͎͕̳͋͆̂ͩ̓̈́͗_͉̱̟͌͜s̴̴̛̙̣̽̄ͣ

which undermine the process of assimilation.

The interloper are indeed a part of creation, but do not serve the assimilation of l҉i҉g҉h҉t҉

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It is dangerous to be unveild by a false idols whether human or a

l̷̷̵̡̗͔̫͙̱̖̣̖̣̓̒ͦ̉̆̃ͫ͋͒͒̔̆ͬͨ̅ͬ̋͒̿͒̂͌̕͡͝͠ͅę̴̰̯̟̯̻̭͓͂͗̐ͧ̏̚͜͠ͅş̷̷̸̡̧̬͍̼̞̜̥̱̠̟̦̳͇̭̖̲̞̄ͧͩ̈ͩ̉́̅̂̄ͧ̀ͥ͆̈́́͊̊s̵̨̡̨̧͎͈̟͈̻̤̜͈̠̺̜̜̫̠̾̑̓̏͐̈̔̃̂̑̿̆̚̕͝ͅḛ̴̡̢͇̱̼̲͈̬̼̮̲͊̅̍̾̈ͦͤͦ̎͒ͬ̔̀͒ͤ̽͘̕͜͝ṙ̴͚͚̝͙̦̐ͣ̎ b̧̜̠̠̻̖̯̩̊̌̽ͯ͛̚͘e̵̷̡̯̰͈̹͕̱͕̼͉͕̿̅ͦ̍ͨ̎̂̅͛ͯͬ̋̃̀̒̓ͩ̇̚̚͜͡͡͡͞͝͞ͅͅi̷͈̦̠̪̩̤̗̣͖̥͔͇̍̔͊ͣ̅ͧ̉̍ͦ́̃̀̎̌̽̋̕ͅń̴̡̢̰̖̥͇̖͙̪͎̥̠̭̰̜͙̥̭̭̯́̌̌͌̒̎ͤ̈́ͯ̐̓̿ͥͦ͗͟͢͟͞͠ͅg̛̹͆͌̇_̸̲̼̬̪̩̹̞̪̫̙̠̝͍̌ͫ̃͗ͤͧ̚͢͝

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