You know what's great to learn at 38, right before bedtime one night, after a whole life time of struggle...
That your mother traumatized you with ADHD to the point where actually pushing myself against ADHD is a trigger... making it so no amount of coping skills can help me push myself for any real length of time...
I'd try and do something that requires a push, even a little one... and be crying... and I thought it was just the feeling of hitting my dopamine... but nooooo... now I'm unpacking that it was me getting triggered at the feeling of pushing my reserves at all...
That explains so damn much and makes me feel so damn hurt and angry...
I was forced to push myself so far so often as a kid and she didn't ever relent when I was critically over-extended on dopamine... usually around cleaning. I'm remembering so many times crying and sobbing on the floor because she demanded I clean to an extreme standard and I wasn't allowed to do anything else until I met her approval...
And I've been running my whole life fucking kneecapped by this... I thought I just had it worse than most (with ADHD) on my ability to push myself on tasks... but no... it's because I realize now I can't fucking push myself at all because my fucking brain just jumps straight to that extreme pain and trauma right away...
Now I'm fucking crying when I should be trying to sleep...
#ADHD #Neurodivergent #Trauma
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Im ok with UI, actually I kinda like its minilalist feel, I guess some people might expect something different but for me is just fine.
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Mozilla announces on-device (as in not using the cloud) AI image recognition to generate alt text for users who need screen readers...
And people are flipping out over AI still in the comments
Firefox 130 is bringing a game-changing feature: automatic alt-text generation for images using a fully private on-device AI model! 🙌🏾Initially available in the built-in PDF editor, our aim is to extend this to general browsing for screen reader users. hacks.mozilla.org/2024/05/expe…
Experimenting with local alt text generation in Firefox Nightly - Mozilla Hacks - the Web developer blog
Firefox 130 will feature an on-device AI model that automatically generates alt-text for images, integrated into its built-in PDF editor.Tarek Ziadé (Mozilla Hacks - the Web developer blog)
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So the temporary system had some sort of failure, I'm not even 100% sure what caused it to be honest. It went down sometime yesterday and some of the virtual drives got corrupted, which caught the database and the virtual gateway device.
I was able to restore the system... most of the way. Thankfully there are backups of the database, but some of them were also flawed as well, the most recent intact one was from 5/16, so 5 days were lost.
To be clear, this problem was exacerbated by the fact that there's not as much redundancy in the temporary setup (sadly it looks like it'll be a few more months before I have a place of my own and can spin up my own hardware again). But I'm going to still look at how I might get those in better shape.
As far as how long it took: I had a busy day yesterday and didn't see that the server was down until I was too exhausted to do anything about it, so it had to wait until I got off work today... each attempt at restoring the database takes around an hour, so that took *a while* to get restored.
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Test from Friendica to:
Mastodon
Friendica
Hubzilla
Lemmy
Kbin
Pixelfed
Gotosocial
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Greatness, thanks for the tip! Set it up now, but will have to test and see how and where it comes through on Friendica. 
@shiri thanks so much for the detailed explanation.
Yes, read about the AP / AT protocols before and that there is some poor guy under fire now for trying to bridge the two, though it’s probably inevitable either way. (BridgyFed?)
Basically just curious to see the smaller abilities and limitations between all the Fediverse tools out there.
Have written a post just now with a table. Just a very basic test, but after many hours of back and forth between the different tools, a pattern emerged.
Using different tools for different uses makes sense, like photos or videos or threads, music, etc.
Though very little posting anywhere is done from this side. Just want to be able to follow, like and comment.
So thought maybe there is something like that, and Friendica / Mastodon and others work fine for that with posts and media.
It’s the aggregators that become an issue when following from a different tool.
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Image Upload Trouble
If y'all have had issues uploading images... sorry about that.
I missed a setting when re-configuring the server after transfer to it's current environment and it's fixed now.
Longer Explanation: there are two servers involved, a reverse proxy and then the actual Friendica server. The Friendica server accepted uploads up to 100MB... the proxy didn't have that setting... so it would just go for a bit, then timeout. Added that setting to the proxy and all solved.
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New here, i'm a nerd and in freetime programmer! Italian, living in Ireland
I like to do a lot of stuff, and i'm interested in: #programming #osdev #music #art #bookbinding #sewing etc.
I like crafting things basically. And writing OS (and about Osdev in general).
Also have an interest into arts, and so far i made a small bunch of paintings (i'm a newbie so don't expect high level art), i will maybe post the photos here in the future.
So far that's all, my nick in the fediverse, and outside is most of the time dreamos82.
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Server Migration Complete
Thank you for your patience!
The server has been migrated to a new dedicated remote server (hosted with OVH) and to the newest version of Friendica (2024.03, previously it was 2023.12).
Things should stabilize mostly for the time being, but I will be on the lookout for bugs.
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in reply to Shiri Bailem • • •i spent a sizeable portion of my childhood shut in my room with "you're not coming out until it's clean!" And without guidance on how to clean it.
I push through hard things like this as an adult with the mantra "something is better than nothing" and just chip away at things.
And I sit with my kids when cleaning their room, talk through my process and coach them. That's been really healing, coaching my kids and also my ADHD friends; it's like re-parenting myself!
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