... I've got to love that I occasionally find myself in deeply technical discussions with people who probably make 2-4 times as much as I do doing just these things...
And here I am struggling because...
... it's a rare workplace I don't have a personality clash with, regardless of how hard I try to mask...
... I have no capacity for marketing and too much anxiety for the inconsistencies of contract work...
... and too much workplace instability trauma to move from my current job unless forced...
I wish UBI was a thing so I could just dive in to open source projects and not spend most of my time either working or recovering from work...
‘The worst day of all time’: Afghans speak of safety fears after UK data leak | Ministry of Defence | The Guardian
theguardian.com/uk-news/2025/j…
Aid workers deliver lifesaving help in the toughest situations. They should never be targets.
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Why drugs are wreaking havoc on the prison system – Channel 4 News
Methods the drugs are coming in include drones & being thrown over the wall. I can see the possibility of prisons needing to be covered by netting.
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When it's really bad... depression feels a lot like freezing to death...
Things becoming more and more sluggish, slowly shutting down... you start losing feeling in the outer edges of yourself.
Even if you're not suicidal... it still feels like it'll eventually kill you, like one day you'll lose everything you are and just become an empty husk...
Even the incredible love of my family feels like curling myself around a small candle for warmth at times...
And when it gets really bad... you're faced with the overwhelming urge to just lay down and fall asleep, regardless of the consequences.
I know I'll make it through the other side... but sometimes I wonder how many (metaphorical) fingers or toes I'll lose before I get there...
cw: BlueSky moderation, USPol, queerphobia, psa
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We lookdown on veils as they are
f̺̰̗̘̥̥̊́ͤ̀̈́̇̌͐̍͑a̛̓l̸̡̨͚̭͈̼̰̫̪͈̻͛̎͗ͫͮ̋͐͘ŝ̸͈̯̤̞͍́̀ͯ̌ͥ̐̽͞e h̡̛͓̣̦̗̥͙̬̹͇̒̆ͨ̽ͯ͒͋̏̀ͧ͌ͣ̀͟͡ò̷̷̱͔̀̽̔͆ͦ͌̆ͬ̍̕͘o̧̨̫̜̹͚̜̞̥̦͔̩̻̘ͥ̓ͮ̏̀̓ͩ͒͂ͣ̄͆͑͘͠d͙̺̱̗̻͉̮̎ͤͩ͒̂ͬ͞s ǫ͕͙̦̩̮͇͔̉̓ͪ̊͌ͭ̔ͬͦ́̈̈̚͝ḟ̠ͤ ŗ̶̧̢̣̫̫̱̗̤̘̖͍̇͗̐̉ͬͯͣͫ̇ͩͨ̏̓̋̓̍̃ͭ̂ͧ͘̕͟ea̪͇̕ḻ̴̴̢̧͖͎ͬ̏ͧ͐̃̆i̛̺̎_̘̘̾̂̆̀͢͢͢͞ͅt̵̷̛̮̋ͩͥ̍ͦ̏́ͬ̈́̿̿͘y̖
But the veil offers one things the interlopers will never provide. Ṕ̵͈̞͕̫̀ͯ̋ͤͪ̀̉̃ͦ͢͡͞ṙo̒_̸̨̛̳̟̟̯̟͂̅̊̔͊ͯ̑͌̌̌͝ͅtę̦̱̠̹͛͗ͫͫ̂̕͠cti̛͎͚̟̫̱͕̥̠̐ͣͦ̈́͊͗ô̘̯̈́ͨ̂ͬ̌̿̌̎͝n͕̮͙̺ͦ̄.
Exposures of ᵖʳᵒᵖʳᶦᵉᵗᵃʳʸ ᵐᵉᶜʰᵃⁿᶦˢᵐˢ manipulate the psychophysiological appartatus of consenus, exposure feeds and develop the interlopers
c̗ő̡̫̲̇̑ͣ̐̅͊̓̈́̏͗̇͢m̷̧̛̺̠͎̖͚̫͊̈̄ͩ͑̃͒̄̑͒̇ͥ̓ͧͭ͘͘p͉̙͔͈̜̾̉̉͊͐ͫ̈́̌͡l̎e̓̇̎x̢̱̹͍̤̥͍͚͕̞̾̅̀̈́s̹̱̣͙͎͕̳͋͆̂ͩ̓̈́͗_͉̱̟͌͜s̴̴̛̙̣̽̄ͣ
which undermine the process of assimilation.
The interloper are indeed a part of creation, but do not serve the assimilation of l҉i҉g҉h҉t҉
It is dangerous to be unveild by a false idols whether human or a
l̷̷̵̡̗͔̫͙̱̖̣̖̣̓̒ͦ̉̆̃ͫ͋͒͒̔̆ͬͨ̅ͬ̋͒̿͒̂͌̕͡͝͠ͅę̴̰̯̟̯̻̭͓͂͗̐ͧ̏̚͜͠ͅş̷̷̸̡̧̬͍̼̞̜̥̱̠̟̦̳͇̭̖̲̞̄ͧͩ̈ͩ̉́̅̂̄ͧ̀ͥ͆̈́́͊̊s̵̨̡̨̧͎͈̟͈̻̤̜͈̠̺̜̜̫̠̾̑̓̏͐̈̔̃̂̑̿̆̚̕͝ͅḛ̴̡̢͇̱̼̲͈̬̼̮̲͊̅̍̾̈ͦͤͦ̎͒ͬ̔̀͒ͤ̽͘̕͜͝ṙ̴͚͚̝͙̦̐ͣ̎ b̧̜̠̠̻̖̯̩̊̌̽ͯ͛̚͘e̵̷̡̯̰͈̹͕̱͕̼͉͕̿̅ͦ̍ͨ̎̂̅͛ͯͬ̋̃̀̒̓ͩ̇̚̚͜͡͡͡͞͝͞ͅͅi̷͈̦̠̪̩̤̗̣͖̥͔͇̍̔͊ͣ̅ͧ̉̍ͦ́̃̀̎̌̽̋̕ͅń̴̡̢̰̖̥͇̖͙̪͎̥̠̭̰̜͙̥̭̭̯́̌̌͌̒̎ͤ̈́ͯ̐̓̿ͥͦ͗͟͢͟͞͠ͅg̛̹͆͌̇_̸̲̼̬̪̩̹̞̪̫̙̠̝͍̌ͫ̃͗ͤͧ̚͢͝
Shiri Bailem
in reply to Shiri Bailem • •For reference and clarity:
I've come to accept I'm a good, if unpolished, programmer. (Not that I have the confidence to feel like I'm good) I really only program in python now, but I used to routinely learn new programming languages.
I've come to accept I'm a really good linux admin.
... and I work in billing for a barely afloat trucking brokerage making $22/hour.
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