Ugh... more than the chronic pain I'm so tired of how hard it is to move...
My whole body, face to toes, feels stiff. Every muscle feels like pulling and bending hard rubber.
I would kill for a massage to just loosen things up for a few hours... (and past experience tells me that's pretty much all I get)
Note: this is a copy/paste because I am so incredibly worn out emotionally I've been sobbing since Sunday over the whole situation. But what use is having a gofundme if I don't get it in front of people.
I hate spamming this out, but it's the only way this works, especially on AP-Fedi.
Gist is I need to get out of the state for my safety, and that's easier said than done with my disabilities, debts, and other limits.
My lease is up in mid-October, I really want to be able to just go straight from here to Washington State and even 2/3rds of this goal will make that happen... but the clock's ticking.
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Starting off my morning with a bit of sobbing...
I've got to move to someplace safer, but it means leaving behind most of my chosen family.
I know we'll stay in touch... but with everyone being poor that means the vast majority of them I'll never see again.
I don't want to fucking go... but I see the writing on the wall, and I remember all those stories from Jewish history of people who thought "It's not going to get that bad" right up until the gestapo kicked down their doors.
A part of me just wants to say "fuck it all" and stay, let them strip me down to nothing and kill me slowly and painfully... but for just a few more days with the people I love... but I also know they worry about me and it'll break them if I don't try to keep myself safe, so I've got to push through this.
I rely on them to push me to take care of myself often, I trust them and I know the urge to give up is partially rooted in my own fatalism toward my life... but dear god if this doesn't feel like preparing to amputate a limb...
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‘The worst day of all time’: Afghans speak of safety fears after UK data leak | Ministry of Defence | The Guardian
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Aid workers deliver lifesaving help in the toughest situations. They should never be targets.
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Why drugs are wreaking havoc on the prison system – Channel 4 News
Methods the drugs are coming in include drones & being thrown over the wall. I can see the possibility of prisons needing to be covered by netting.
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cw: BlueSky moderation, USPol, queerphobia, psa
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We lookdown on veils as they are
f̺̰̗̘̥̥̊́ͤ̀̈́̇̌͐̍͑a̛̓l̸̡̨͚̭͈̼̰̫̪͈̻͛̎͗ͫͮ̋͐͘ŝ̸͈̯̤̞͍́̀ͯ̌ͥ̐̽͞e h̡̛͓̣̦̗̥͙̬̹͇̒̆ͨ̽ͯ͒͋̏̀ͧ͌ͣ̀͟͡ò̷̷̱͔̀̽̔͆ͦ͌̆ͬ̍̕͘o̧̨̫̜̹͚̜̞̥̦͔̩̻̘ͥ̓ͮ̏̀̓ͩ͒͂ͣ̄͆͑͘͠d͙̺̱̗̻͉̮̎ͤͩ͒̂ͬ͞s ǫ͕͙̦̩̮͇͔̉̓ͪ̊͌ͭ̔ͬͦ́̈̈̚͝ḟ̠ͤ ŗ̶̧̢̣̫̫̱̗̤̘̖͍̇͗̐̉ͬͯͣͫ̇ͩͨ̏̓̋̓̍̃ͭ̂ͧ͘̕͟ea̪͇̕ḻ̴̴̢̧͖͎ͬ̏ͧ͐̃̆i̛̺̎_̘̘̾̂̆̀͢͢͢͞ͅt̵̷̛̮̋ͩͥ̍ͦ̏́ͬ̈́̿̿͘y̖
But the veil offers one things the interlopers will never provide. Ṕ̵͈̞͕̫̀ͯ̋ͤͪ̀̉̃ͦ͢͡͞ṙo̒_̸̨̛̳̟̟̯̟͂̅̊̔͊ͯ̑͌̌̌͝ͅtę̦̱̠̹͛͗ͫͫ̂̕͠cti̛͎͚̟̫̱͕̥̠̐ͣͦ̈́͊͗ô̘̯̈́ͨ̂ͬ̌̿̌̎͝n͕̮͙̺ͦ̄.
Exposures of ᵖʳᵒᵖʳᶦᵉᵗᵃʳʸ ᵐᵉᶜʰᵃⁿᶦˢᵐˢ manipulate the psychophysiological appartatus of consenus, exposure feeds and develop the interlopers
c̗ő̡̫̲̇̑ͣ̐̅͊̓̈́̏͗̇͢m̷̧̛̺̠͎̖͚̫͊̈̄ͩ͑̃͒̄̑͒̇ͥ̓ͧͭ͘͘p͉̙͔͈̜̾̉̉͊͐ͫ̈́̌͡l̎e̓̇̎x̢̱̹͍̤̥͍͚͕̞̾̅̀̈́s̹̱̣͙͎͕̳͋͆̂ͩ̓̈́͗_͉̱̟͌͜s̴̴̛̙̣̽̄ͣ
which undermine the process of assimilation.
The interloper are indeed a part of creation, but do not serve the assimilation of l҉i҉g҉h҉t҉
Shiri Bailem
in reply to Shiri Bailem • •If anyone wants to help make it a little easier... can't change the pain but can change how difficult the task is that I'm dealing with alongside this pain...
gofundme.com/f/assist-a-jewish…